How are you doing? Things are good here. Just wanted to give you some updates. I’m having such a fun night, It’s midnight or a little after. Tonight’s plans include cleaning up the apartment (yet again), working out, listening to some music and maybe drawing some more. Did you guys see that NSFW coloring book page I put up a few minutes ago? Can you tell where my head’s at right now?
Currently chilling out listening to Robin Thicke which is not only getting me off [video], but also putting me in a very good mood. His voice is hitting all the right spots in my ear.
There’s this push within myself to kind of level out my life. Oh btw that’s the end of all the updates, lol…. I don’t do much, like ever. I’m doing good and well… haha… there is the end of my list of accomplishments. So yeah, leveling out my life. There are some conclusions, kinda that i’m coming to or on, depending on how you look at it. Here’s a list!:
- I’ve got emotional problems that I may never really “get over,” but I need to manage them better.
- I really really wanna interact with some guy(s) and I got to be honest about that.
- I’m a man goddammit, I really need to get my MAN body and start behaving like a grown ass man. I need to not be so torn all the time and really grip it and rip it.
- I have to ask for what I want, regardless of the consequences. Doesn’t mean I’ll get it, but I do need to express it.
- I’ve really got to turn this around.
It’s things that’s been known, it’s not really new information… but I can’t let myself go as I did this last year. No more of that.
So Wifey is starting to really work hard on layering in all of my layers into her consciousness. Her and I need to sync realities and be sorta on the same page if we want our marriage to not be as rocky. She’s working on it and I’m working on NOT hiding it from her. Openness and transparency, what I preach, so… time to walk the walk.
I’m busting down walls, cause I’m tired of struggling and flailing around like a fish out of water. Relationships will endure if they’re meant to. I’m not looking to break hearts, especially not my own anymore.
Kicking it into high gear, because now is the time to do so!
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